MOLESTED ANGEL GET HER WINGS
As a survivor of molestation, I can honestly say there is a beautiful life after being molested. I remember watching "Woman Thou Art Loose" by TD Jakes. In the movie, the main character, a young female was raped by her mother’s boyfriend who took her virginity. Neither her mother or anybody in her life knew her inner suffering with this experience. That hidden anguish grew to self-destruction.
The movie bothered me from the standpoint that when a man of God counsels this young lady knowing her deep seated anger and offered her no answers and in the end no hope. This was a great devastation for me because the victim ends up shooting the victimizer at the altar in the House of God. People found this to be an excellent movie. I found it to be a preying on emotions and a means of an income dealing with a subject so complex and soul altering that to tamper with it with no resolve was unjust to molested victims needing help. Several years later, I still remember this disappointment.
With this in mind, I want victims, not only molested victims to know and understand there is hope and there are answers. We just have to discover our own path to God. I wrote a book, "LAST DAY OF VICTIMIZATION". This book reveals the soul of victimization and prepares victims and those who love and want to assist in the healing process answers and a real understanding why we are victims. Trust me if you really want to be delivered from your past, it can happen and it will if you consider the possibility it is because you are a child of God therefore you are a target for potential abuse.
Though many people would hate to admit, healing from molestation and many other forms of abuse takes time, lots of time. It is a shifting of gears from low to high with neutral sometimes making us think we are not progressing. I want molested angels all around the world to know you can and will accept your wings of freedom. When it happens you will know it. I remember accepting my wings. It happened in a way that never entered my mind. I owe it to my soul mate. I will ever be indebted to him.
Standing up for one’s feelings, needs and desires was difficult for me as a molested victim because that natural choosing was denied me for so many years of my life. I faced the world not acknowledging my true feelings that made me who I am. Instead, the needs, feelings and desires of the ones I loved had precedence over mines; but finally after much trust in God and allowing myself to rise out of my private abyss, I spoke from my soul and risk the chance of disappointing or even losing my soul mate. See in the past, I was hollered at or spanked if I expressed my true feelings. But my day of realizing God has brought me from a long way I spoke and received my Wings of Healing. Today, I can say: God will restore the years of the locusts. My past can no longer paralyze my presence. To be free is knowing you are AMAZING!
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Gripping the Soul
A HORRIFIC MOVEMENT HAS TAKEN PLACE MAKING US AWARE WE ARE AN INDIVIDUAL AND WE HAVE A SOUL. It is a taking that mars our total being. It carries the vibrations of a wounded animal dying with no value. Immediately when something is taken from us a death-like agony fills our emotions and feelings. It makes us aware of a reality beyond the body and worldly environment. We come to realize what we are made of. That part of us silenced by external influences now becomes louder than our physical environment. We feel like we’re bleeding yet in many cases there is no blood. Something is oozing coming forth like puss from an infected wound. We try to stuff everything back inside ourselves but whatever it is, we can’t see or touch it to control and direct it. It is like someone has literary pulled our hearts out of our chests and held it in their hands. We see them with it but we can never get it back; yet we are alive and we have to go on although this huge part of us is gone.
It takes hold of our total mind and heart and festers into sweet sorrow because we have been robbed of our natural life flow to experience the moment uninhibited by evil forces. Bitterness follows in most cases because that is what unjust pain becomes. The instant preparation of a private abyss formulates to pull us deeper into the darkness of our agony.
My soul is weary of my life; I will leave my complaint upon myself; I will speak in the bitterness of my soul. Job 10:1
Doses of Reality
As the time passed, I grew too weary to think about what happened to me; instead my interest was in what was it about me that gave my victimizers the signals I could be captured. I went back to the nature of a child because children are the most sought after and innocent victims in the world today. They have the potential to allow love to be given and received. Children give us a chance to do the right thing for humanity.
Compared to a child, I found I as well as people I had talked to who had been victimized, all had a heart to do the right thing by people and life. We tend to have a respect for God and our spirituality. When I accepted this woman as a partner in fulfilling my dream, I was busy praying and hoping to be a blessing in her life because there was no pleasure for me being blessed alone.
Where I was thinking about prospering her life while we worked towards my goals, she was interested in her own progress at my expense. She led me to believe the value of my dream was valuable to her as well. There was not anything childlike about her presence. Her presence in the world joined the other worldly conscious of greedy and selfish people.
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: 1Peter 5:8
]]>Excerpt: I KNOW MIXED SIGNAL SYNDROME By Linda D. Wattley
Sad to say, a psycho/sociopathic mentality rules this country. In other words, America breeds molestation. The growing alienation among people is making this a loveless society. People would rather have more stuff than more people to love. As a child, it was apparent to me there was more going on in this world than what I was told. I wanted to know why there were so many unhappy people and why would someone shoot John F. Kennedy in the head. I knew whoever did this to him, that he or she did not love him. I never physically touched this man but I loved him deeply. Hearing his voice, I felt hope. When people willfully hurt me, I felt it only revealed their hearts and it was something I needed to know. For sure, I did not want to be like them.
That same mentality that killed President Kennedy is found in predators. In America, they are found in all institutions determining our fate. Molestation is a subtle form of victimization characterized by greed, superiority over others, selfishness, hatred, deceit, etc. Keep in mind when you are dealing with a human predator, you are dealing with a person who has no conscious of the life of their victims. Their main concern can go anywhere from self-gratification to actual murder. Their missions can be as simple as being a con artist, politician, employer, rapist, spouse etc. Predators live to kill life be it mental, emotional, financial, spiritual, and physical. It seems no one ever asks the question why he or she does not have control over their drive to act on the inner callings to rape and kill. It is not considered that just maybe it could be a powerful force taking possession of their minds and subsequently their souls.
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against
the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
Ephesians 6:12
The possibility of considering unseen forces as the means to bringing these heart-wrenching experiences is seldom considered. One afternoon I was watching the Dr. Phil Show. The guests on his show were dealing with molestation that had taken place with a grandfather with his son’s daughter. When the grandfather said the devil made him do it, it provoked Dr. Phil. He immediately told him he was lying and that he molested his granddaughter because he wanted to do it. I wanted to tell Dr. Phil so badly this man was telling the truth. He was allowing the evil forces of hell to control his nature. Why? I don’t know but sometimes it is because of the conditioning to survive in an environment dominated by molesting forces to take at any costs.
Molestation always has a predator that uses mixed signals to achieve its goals. The mental processing of molestation is successful through a psycho/sociopath mentality. It does not have to have physical contact to take place. Their trusting us is not required for the molester to move confidentially in their pursuit. However, they have to assume we trust them. They know it is not trust that causes a victim to comply. It is Mixed Signal Syndrome. All a predator needs from us is to fear them in some subtle way. For instance, the fear my books would not be published reigned over me through both of my literary experiences. With a child, the fear he or she may upset others and destroy their families paralyzes their ability to speak about it.
Molestation is a power move to obtain selfish gratification. It is the most dehumanizing experience in America.
Deception and lies are mixed with many levels of truths to cause the mind not to establish certainty. If certainty is established it is only temporary because what is given is a decoy to draw us in. Molesters at times bargain with their prey. If we keep quiet, we can live.
America Breeds Molestation because the source that keeps it alive is evil. As long as our world order is based on greed, lust, superiority, racism and hate, our children will never be safe and neither will the innocent people who have a conscious.
Everywhere we turn in this country there is corruption and in that corruption is molestation. Mixed Signal Syndrome shows up strictly for controlling our minds and lives. The sources being mentioned having MSS does not apply to all but do apply to many of the named sources. There is not anything new about this information. It is just sharing an American cocktail in a clear glass with more ice.
"We have staked the whole of all our political institutions upon the capacity of mankind for self-government, upon the capacity of each and all of us to govern ourselves, to control ourselves, to sustain ourselves according to the Ten Commandments of God."
James Madison, the fourth president, known as "The Father of Our Constitution"
Political Molestation
When politicians begin molesting people, they fill the media and our minds with mixed signals of promises of doing well for the whole and unveiling knowledge of the imperfections of their opponents until the day of election. By the time people get to the polls, they are so filled with mixed signals they do not know for sure what is real. Many voters are moved by their fears of the future and their livelihood. Whoever calms their main fears is the one selected at the polls. What we have gotten from our government is a direct result of MSS. The government was established to serve the people but the people are serving the government as it controls our livelihood. We are supposed to be a democracy and we swear by it even though there is no equality here for people because our political structure has been allowed to set up a foundation forcing classifications of people that ensure the rich will continue to become richer while the poor continue to be poorer. Our right to vote was designed to inform our government what the majority desired and needed to remain a productive and thriving species. The results of our voting never seem to show up in our democracy. We still have people struggling for healthcare, education, equality, security etc.
It never seems to amaze me how the masses limit their power to a few. The real power is in the people but because of MSS we allow ourselves to become numb to taking a stand and forcing changes for our best good. We pay this foundation to rob us of future security. Who would be the first to admit it? We are an embarrassment to the world. They know our government does not have our best interest at heart this is why the world does not understand why we are trying to make Iraq form a democracy as we have here in America. They do not see it making us prosperous. They see our MSS. We are no longer trusted by other countries.
America will pay for its tendency to enslave people by cheap labor. This time, I believe the immigrants are going to accept this position for it prepares them for establishing a base of eventual control because they know the power of numbers and unity. For this, I respect their wisdom to build. Better is the poor that walketh in his uprightness, than he that is perverse in his ways, though he be rich. Proverbs 28:6
"It cannot be emphasized too strongly or too often that this great nation was founded not by religionists but by Christians, not on religions but on the Gospel of Jesus Christ.”
Patrick Henry, that patriot and Founding Father of our country
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I was watching a talk show with a mother and a twelve-year old daughter as guests on the show. The daughter was excited about her pronounced position to be identified as a bisexual person. The mother was a lesbian and told the audience she believes her daughter is a lesbian as well. She told them she started out thinking she was bisexual before finally realizing she in fact was a lesbian.
They were proud of their freedom to be. It is amazing how society preps us to indulge in our sexual appetites no matter what they may be. First we had gay men coming out of closets, then we had lesbians declaring their preference. Now, we have bisexuals declaring their right to enjoy both sexes. The latter reveals the most greediest human being of all. They are not satisfied with one. They must have both. Over indulgence of sexual activity is revealing mankind is not satisfied with anything tasted continuously.
Children are being directed into a world of sexuality unnecessarily. They are not being given a chance to fully develop as total beings. Sexual preference should be the farthest thing from their minds especially with the perverted activities going on with adults today. What we are facing is the continued reality that mankind is still struck by the Eve complex found in the Garden of Eden.
She saw the fruit of the tree and Found it to be pleasing to the eyes and once she bit into the fruit found it to be delicious. Just as we enjoy selecting sexual preferences and tendencies to pleasing our senses, we must pay the price for such choices. And what is that price? The price we pay is having a dangerous and perverted society seeking to fulfill huge appetites of lust. Children are being lost to this over indulging and out of control lifestyle.
With no boundaries and foundations established, society is preparing to be infested with maturing heathens who will not care what anybody thinks or feel about them. Siblings are raping siblings and children are being targeted like appetizers as adults draw near to them knowing they are sexually active in their lives.
As far as I am concerned Bi-sexual tendencies confirm the greedy conscious we live in today. It is not about loving a person anymore it is about tasting them for a while. While she's with her, she is thinking about him and when she is with him, she is thinking about her. No totality in a relationship can ever happen. Who cares? I just want some satisfaction and I want it now.
]]>Hello everybody! I hope all is well with you. I am doing great. First of all, I want you to know I am a survivor of sexual, mental, emotional and physcial abuse. My greatest concern in life is letting people know any form of abuse encountered is a direct result of predators seeking to destroy you because he or she is already dead. It is not about you and what you have or have not done. It is about either or. Enemies of God are the only ones who attack His children. I want you to understand the attack is not about you, it is about God.
| Jhn 15:19 | If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you. |